everybody's got that somethin'

is it fucked up to hate on someone that's retarded? not, 'haha, you say such stupid shit retarded.' i mean, really, cerebral palsy, mental retardation retarded. i guess i should explain myself. i'm on night float now (overnight, 9pm to 7am shifts, kinda like baby-sitting sick adults), and i overheard some other residents going over signout for this one patient. it was the typical, 'patient x is a 40-something year-old male with a history of cerebral palsy, mental retardation, blah blah blah..." until they got to the part about his wife being his health-care proxy. it was the mention of a wife that broke me out of my ipod-nano induced absence seizure-like state. how the fuck could this unfortunate bedbound, motor-compromised, man of less than average mental capacity find someone to marry him, while i remain single? (of course everything always comes back to me). seriously though. so i ask the resident about that, and he says, 'oh, his wife has mental retardation too,' which oddly enough, provided even more discomfort. how could two mentally retarded people find love in new york city while i remain single? whatever. i'm probably going to hell for that.

anyway, i'm finished with about one-quarter of my intern year before i head back to nyu for ophthalmolgy. for the most part, it's been pretty chill. no major problems and the workload has been completely bearable. the one disconcerting fact is that you don't really need to know much to do my job, as long as you can speak confidently and emphatically.